Holding on but Still Released

Theme: Holding

Holding, I've held myself to see what it means,
on this chair to write down what it means in this piece.
Unloading what I've been holding about this theme.
Holding...

Held, weighed down by others' beliefs,
for a belief they hold that I am not what I seem.
To me I seem who I'm meant to be;
but what I'll seem is the villain they dream.

A dream, my dream is to meet that who I love,
A dream so loved that I'm holding it out,
Out to my love but held close to my chest.
Holding out, it's a dream that gets lived.

I lived a life, I'm not the proudest to live,
with myself holding those memories over my head.
Head hung in shame, I look away;
from looking back, to the life that awaits,

but I also hold high what makes me, me.
The past holds on to make me what I see,
what I do and what I think.
The me that holds herself out to be seen.